I don't belong here...

When I was spiritually transformed 5 years ago, my views were also greatly changed. My creative side, my mothering, my teaching, my attitude, my likes, EVERYTHING changed! There was no denying Christ was now residing inside of me. 

 See my Spiritual Autobiography Comic here...

http://thelostsocklife.blogspot.com/2013/03/supertab-autobiographical-comic-of-my.html

This changing does not sit still, but grows bigger and stronger as life moves on. Each circumstance, good or bad, just proves validity to His supernatural presence and power more and more in my life. Since my young husband of ten year, Shannon Seaton, unexpectedly passed away 5 months ago, my perspective has changed immensely. I feel as though I am seeing the world we live in from a higher plane, through the eyes of Heaven. Suddenly, things that were so important to me before I let slip by. And things that I let slip by before have become my main desire. Each thing, activity, creation, friendship or even that I am involved in is weighed on a spiritual scale. Does this bring life to me or another person? Does this matter in the end? Does this only lead to vanity or selfish desires? Does this get in the way of His plan for me and my family?

My sight is on Heaven and towards things that last forever. 

I respect honest people more than ever and have a heightened sense of discernment in people's character.

Are my friendships bringing me down, am I lifting others up, or are they leading nowhere? 

I feel as though I have one foot in Heaven, my eternal home and one here on Earth, my temporary home. 

I feel as though my husband did not leave me here in grief, but went ahead of me to renew my hope.

I will meet him again soon, but until I do I have to make the most of this world. I have to fight to show the truth, be kind to those around me, and share His love through my own. 

I am here to love and save, not judge or condemn. 

I don't belong here, but I am here for a reason and will live in His Plan.

I will follow His path to the end. I started it with Him and will end it with Him.

He is the Alpha and Omega, the author and finisher of my life.

I will run this Race of Faith, 

"Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith..." Hebrews 12:1-2

If we are truly and sincerely living in Christ, we should have senses that doesn't match up with those of this world. When I am living and walking closely with Christ (a daily practice and honest struggle), I feel like things of this world lose importance. The worldly things are temporary, but normal people greatly vale them (money, fame, luxury, etc.). These things do nothing for our joy or spirit and only temporarily bring us fading happiness. This walk is daily, taking in daily bread (His word), and intimate moments everyday to keep in constant communication with Our Leader. We cannot zone out friends!

 Our head should be in Heaven's clouds... not the worlds smoke and mirrors.

THIS WORLD BELONGS TO SATAN

1 John 5:19

"And we know that we are of God, and the whole world is under the power of the evil one."

I AM AN ALIEN HERE

"Dear friends, I warn you as "temporary residents and foreigners" to keep away from worldly desires that wage war against your very souls".

1 Peter 2:11

I AM A CITIZEN OF HEAVEN

"But our citizenship is in Heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior there, the Lord Jesus Christ:"

Philippians 3:20

I DO NOT LOVE THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD... they are temporary.

"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

“The eye is the lamp of the body. 
Matthew 6:19-24

art by Tabitha Seaton

SERVE ETERNITY or FALL FOR THE TEMPORARY

"No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money"

Matthew 6:24

art by Tabitha Seaton

WHO ARE YOU HERE TO PLEASE... The Creator or His Creation?

"If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet, because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you" 

John 15:19

HIS WORD IS NOT POPULAR!

"I have given them Your word, and the world has hated them because [Your words] are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not pray that You should take them out of this world, but that You should keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world,"

John 17:14

This image below is the one I used for the above
"I don't belong here..." drawing. Awkward!

P.S.
Dear D.H, Brother in Christ.
I do not think of you as a sneaky snake, but a unfortunate frozen friend.
We will continue on the other side, when we get Home.
In His Love and Light,
Tabitha

Thank God... I know the truth.

 

Thank God I Know the Truth

by Tabitha Seaton

  inspired by God's Word and Roy Lichtenstein

 This world is full of fake people, lies, sneaky snakes, wolves in sheep's clothing, users, abuser, bullies, meanies.. (take a breath)... or people that just get scared of being sincere, 

so they just get jaded and lazy.

When you go through a tragedy people show up out of nowhere to be your "friend". 

Some are real, helpful, and stick around even after the storm.

Some were gravitated to you because you were "in the spotlight' and they want some of it for themselves. Only time will tell what kind of "friend" they really are. 

I have learned this the hard way. 

In case you are a new reader, you need to know that 5 months ago 

my wonderful husband  of 10 blessed years, Shannon Seaton, 

passed at the young age of 35 unexpectedly.

In my grieving state... the nights are the hardest.

I look forward to being "alone" after working all day with 100 art students with raging hormones, then coming home to 2 little girls that fight, whine and complain 

(sometimes they are nice though... no, they are really sweet, just take LOTS of energy!).

But when the night does come, and they girls are down... 

things get lonely in a whole new form.

It is hard... challenging... it....SUCKS STINKY SOCKS!

Night after night I am finding myself making a choice.

I can either 

A.) Let Satan steal my joy & fill my head with lies, cry in bed alone feeling sorry for my lonely self,

pig out on a giant tub of cheese puffs and Blue Bell banana pudding ice cream

while tell myself that I am an ugly slobbish loser that is going nowhere but old and wrinkly 

and will never find love or be happy ever again, 

& ignore God cause I am mad at him for all he has taken away.

-OR-

B.) Believe in God's truth, rest under warm cozy blankets with my creamy Chai Tea singing praises and thanks, reading the Promises of Christ, while using my talents to help others see Him more clearly, focus on my blessings, pray for my dreams, think about all God has brought me through so far, and know the truth...

that I am beautifully, intricately, perfectly and wonderfully designed by the master of all creation. 

I am a child of His..

I can believe the lies or know the truth!

Listen to this song, Child of Mine by Mark Schultz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64Fnm11TIAU

I will choose to listen to the voice of truth!

Listen to this song, Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VaVg0cWkgAw

I have done mostly "B", but a little of "A" as well. I much prefer the "B", because it just feels better.

As a young widow though, I have realized not every night can be a "B". Some nights you have to scream as loud as you can into a pillow, cry out to the dark night, stomp your feet like a toddler, and  just let it go. As long as this is not done for too long or becomes habit, I think it is perfectly natural.

I am doing my best here. I hate being fake. I am the most honest person you will meet.

BUT, here lately I feel like I have to "fake" happy, just to eventually believe it myself. I think it is better to be positive than it is to complain. 

We must speak Life! We must be a light of hope to the hopeless.

Too much of lonely night option "A" will not allow us to do this. 

If we believe His word, it is perfect. God has proven faithful. Go look in the Bible for His promises and test Him to prove it wrong.

“Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it. I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not cast their fruit,” says the LORD Almighty. “Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land,” says the LORD Almighty.”

Malachi 3:10-12

 God has never lied or broken a promise! His word is the only thing we can believe. 

It is the only thing that can protect us from lies of the world.

He is my refuge when I feel like this world is a jerk!

He is the only thing I can fully trust...

"Every word of God proves true. He is a shield to all who come to him for protection."

Proverbs 30:5 

If you don't understand a promise... TELL HIM!

Ask Him to show you what it means. I have...

He always answers me, but the key is being aware of the clues around you. 

He will never deny you if you ask him a question...

 He will not deny you the answer, He is your FATHER and desires to give you knowledge of His ways.

Luke 11:11-13 
“If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent? 
Or if he shall ask for an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?

If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your heavenly Father give the holy Spirit to them that ask Him?”

 I just thank God every night, even on the Plan "A" nights after my fit is thrown, 
for the truth of His word. That it is something I can depend on for my future. I know He is taking care of me in my hard times and only His word is the only real place i can find hope. 
I pray that you can turn to Him too and see the truth. 

Go taste the truth of this daily bread and see how sweet it really is...

Psalm 34:8
^"O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him."


FOR MORE of my WIDOW BLOG POSTS... 
go here
http://thelostsocklife.blogspot.com/2013/08/diary-of-young-widow.html