The LostSock Life: November 2013

Mercy Me, Rain

If you ask me what my FAVORITE thing to do is...

I will tell you that I love listening to my music and creating for my Creator.

This is how i imagine Heaven.

I see it as a place where we listen to the angels sing and work with a joyful heart for our Father.

Only in Heaven I will have a wider variety of colors on my palette.

I could sit for an eternity outside in pretty weather, listening to J.J. Heller, Mercy Me, or Kari Jobe.

Music drives me to inspiration. I linger on the words and let them settle into my spirit, then they leak through my fingers to my pencils and onto paper.

My wonderful Hubby, Shannon Seaton, passed away 4 months ago.

I have been going through stages of emotions like a roller coaster.

This past week has been the worst! I just feel so alone and useless and as though I have nothing to look forward to. Everyone keeps telling me, "Live in the Moment!", but my moment is lonely. So, that makes me lonelier. I work all day doing art with middle schoolers, come home to my two wonderful but needy little girls, looking forward to night time alone after I struggle to get them to bed... then sit in bed wishing I had a companion to talk to.

I have noticed if I am just sitting around idle worrying about my future and what I cannot control,

I fall in a deep pit of selfishness, insecurity, and fear.

God is lovingly keeping me in suspense of what my future holds, but I know it is going to be good.

I just have to wait on His perfect timing for my dreams.

But I can't stand sitting still! I need to move!

So, a great friend noticed me in a pit and told me that i really need to find something positive to do.

I told her about all of these cool inspirational posters on Pinterest that I look at to cheer up.

One of them said,

"Life is like riding a Bicycle. In order to keep your balance you must keep moving"

MY INSPIRATION TO INSPIRE

It's contagious!

http://lindseylazarte.files.wordpress.com/2013/03/bicycle.jpg

This was created by Jessica from Volume Twenty Five,

it is exactly what I needed!

I need to move! Or else I will fall because of lack of balance.

Just cause I am waiting on Him doesn't mean I have to

SIT AND WAIT.

SO, i listen to my music, record the words that speak to me and create!

Here it is...

What I do while I wait.

Working on my Jamie Grace, Lead Me On design...


No, I am not "picking my nose" I am sharpening my pencil,	with my nifty nose sharpener... DUH!

Jamie Grace , Lead Me On

J.J. Heller, Come Home

Jamie Grace, Beautiful Day (1)

Jamie Grace, Beautiful Day (2)

Jamie Grace, Beautiful Day (3)

God Girl, Jamie Grace

Speak Life, Toby Mac

Steal My Show, Toby Mac

Ginny Owens

Mercy Me

Rain

J.J Heller

Only Love Remains

J.J. Heller

Only Love Remains

Bible Verse Illustration (in my own words)

Sanctus Real FORGIVEN

Ginny Owens

Illustrated Bible Verses

Maisy, my 6 year old daughter's illustration

My Illustration and Interpretation of

Exodus 14:14

My Illustration of 1 Thessalonians 5:15

"A Happy Heart makes the Face Cheerful".

Proverbs 15:13

Just a thought about how Fatih is believeing in what we cannot see,

and that Faith the size of a tiny mustard seed can move mountains.

We look to what our eyes see and believe, but it is really what our heart sees that lasts.

For it is what we cannot see that will be eternal!

Wind moves the Mill...

My journey of faith would not be as smooth or peaceful

If I did not have the gifts God gave me.

I am so greatful that He has entrusted me with creativity and all I want to do is honor Him with what I create. I have found that His gift for me is greatly needed in times of storms. He shows me how to use my art to guide me through times when life is just too much. I can take all that is inside of me and let it out in a way that is glorifying His name. I work through whatever it is I am facing with Him holding my hand. I look into HIs face and say, "Let's do this," as he hands me the tools to begin my work. I meditate on His teaching and love and dive into a place unseen. I work through His Spirit as I spin these works into life. None of these would be possible without His gifts and presence.

Each part of my journey is documented in a spiritual self portrait.

Looking back on these from the past 5 years, my life seems to be puzzling together into a clearer picture. All the pain, loss, and grief has led me to hope, peace, and life.

I know God is in control of every part of my suffering and that it will all be used to bring me closer to Him. In the end, down the path of my life, waiting there is the same Man that was there in the beginning.

Revalation 22:13 says,

"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End."

Psalm 139:13-14 says,

"ForYou formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.…

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These are documentations through my life (in order) that show places I have been spiritually.

At the beginning of my new walk with Christ,

I felt so resuced from my past.

All the lies that I believed from what I was before were burried with mud.

His light disinntegrated my sin.

Here I documented my feeling of knowing better than God...

It was all about MY plans, MY ideas, My way...

But, no matter how hard we pull at this tug-o-war with HIM,

We will never win, only grow tired till we humbly fall in defeat.

He will be there to help us up.

Hurt and Healer collide...

Just freshly cut from a painful truth of a marital fault,

I was given pure peace and healing while holding my baby in my arms.

Her sleeping breath was a gift of music to my heart.

From the moment this idea was born, it took an entire year to come to a spot brave enough to create from the pain. But once I knew how much peace and comfort came from creating from the hurt,

the Healing Came.

He cries for us too, and tears of blue bring life and hope to flowers new.

http://tabithaannthelostsock.blogspot.com/2012/04/healing-through-hurt.html

After healing from hurt in relationships, Satan continues to make us believe that we never truly forgave. LIke a vulture he waits for us to sink hopeless and believe him...

But God is our hope... The sky falling to pieces is not really so terrible if it brings in truth and light.